I’ve been saying “shit” a lot lately. I try not to curse a lot, but this one just keeps slipping out. In all honesty, it could be a lot worse seeing as how I’m half New York, half New Jersey. Sorry to those who are offended. 

I’ve been absent from tumblr for a few weeks. Here’s what’s happened during that time:

1.) Josh and I got a dog named Jasper. He’s a handful, but he’s adorable. He keeps Josh and I laughing a lot, except when he is doing something really bad.

2.) I finally got a real job in the music business. I now work in publishing, which I didn’t see happening. It’s a lot to learn, but I really love it thus far. I really do.

3.) My new hobby is planning out meals for Josh and I. I love to cook healthy (made with local veggies and meatl) and exciting recipes for him. However, because I’m gluten free, so is Josh. 

4.) While these last few weeks have been filled with a great deal of happiness, I did have a bit of teary, emotional freak out because I feel like I’ve been living by morals and rules that I don’t personally believe in and are a bit more rigid that mine. I don’t do well with this…at all. Especially when it causes guilt over shit I don’t believe in feeling guilty over. Whatever. I cried a long time about it. Then sucked it up because I don’t see any other way. I have no choice. So while it annoys me a little bit every day, instead of freaking out over it, I just try to breathe through it. And talk myself through it. And try to maintain patience. 

5.) A few weeks ago, I had a migraine so badly it landed me in the hospital. It was a very bad one that caused numbness of my fingers, hands, arm and tongue. It also greatly affected my ability to communicate, first my writing skills, then my processing skills and finally my ability to speak. It was very scary. I’m trying to find a doctor to help me figure out my triggers and create an action plan with me in case it happens again. I think one of my biggest triggers may be stress (cue paragraph above).

6.) It’s starting to get cooler out here, meaning I’m all around more energetic and at peace. Plus I’m bouncing with joy about the impending holiday season. 

The end.